jeh

Saturday, March 31 4:33 PM

i managed to resurrect that dead tagboard after nearly one year. hoho haha. and i totally have no idea how to remove that gay looking *****star-gazing****** line at the bottom. and logically, it wasn't me who designed that.

jeh

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jeh

Tuesday, March 20 11:51 PM

why is every single person i speak to are all concerned with only work. argh. why why why!! and ironically I asked them cos i didnt want to go to office again on thursday. dammmnn. NO. i do not want to go back there again. but argh neither do i like twitching and nimbling my toes doing nothing.

it feels like as if i'm all alone in this universe.
- Lynne Perkins

at this point i suddenly remember what Sergeant Major said just before we entered the parade square for our POP.. these people dont care how long you stayed in the jungle for fieldcamp, how many 24km marches you did, how many obstacles you cleared for soc, the endless amounts of pushups.. then i thought of something ms thiang said during one of her GE tuts. the plight and frailty of the individual in the universe. eh. wait. i think mark tan said that.

looks familiar.

jeh

Sunday, March 18 11:12 PM

ns is really overrated and overhyped. it could just be the wholesomely effective PR campaign that the organisation manages to conjole the public into handing over the lives of thousands of young males to go through. okay if you didnt understand what i just said, it's okay. because the organisation is really killing my brain too. i cant even construct a decent piece of prose right now that even makes sense. anyway I recently had my passing out parade which marked the end of my bmt and the end of senseless times with jaggie jaguar. heheh. that company is really funny. when they want to treat us nicely, they treat us DAMN nice. like giving us compulsory afternoon naps. but when they want to **** you, hoho be prepared for 140 push ups, 2min showers, running up and down 5 flights of stairs, rifle PT etc. but i guess it really trained us up too. its like everyone suddenly becomes damn good at running! even people who used to run 2.4k at 14mins suddenly morph into 11min runners. hahahah. i'll miss jaguar. i'll miss the gay boy(s) sleeping/slept beside me for 2mths. let me tell you about my buddy mr adrian chua ji hua. cos we're both corner beds so we end up having both our beds joined together, a la king size bed style. this mad boy talks to his gf late into the night and sometimes it looks like as if he's talking to the wall at the same time. HAHAHA. and he has this weird thing for me everynight at around 4am. okay for the past few weeks i've suddenly been waking up at 4+am for some unknown reason. and when i wake up, i see my bisexual buddy rubbing my shoulder a la ROM style. (!!!) and when i tell it to him when he wakes up he totally denies it straight out flat. right. Private adrian chua ji hua. hahahaha. anyway back to the parade. i must say that LOTS of strange things have been happening in my life. i've had many dreams where a singular person just pops out of nowhere. its eerie. but yet it feels so surreal.

its sad but i didnt invite anyone to come for my passing out parade. okay i tried, but he/she/it couldnt make it. so i guess it's either all or nothing. anyway while marching past the spectator stand while doing the rifle salute, i suddenly (thought) i heard _____'s voice calling out for me amongst the shouts and cries and flashing cameras. it's like HUH. i was totally stunned. how did he/she/it even find out how to get into the camp? how did she/he/it even manage to get on the ferry w/o tics? well yeah as it turned out i was either
a) too bloody tired from the stupid marching and started seeing and hearing bizzare hallucinations
b) mad.
well the answer turned out to be a). i guess it was someone's gf screaming out for another jonathan and had a voice that really sounded like _____. but i would have been immensely touched if she really managed to find her way there just to be there for me. i would've cried. really.

jeh