jeh

Saturday, February 26 4:04 PM

a poem written in the dead of thursday night - hmm at least i think it's a poem?

I can never understand why the sky so blue
Why the sun so red hot
Why I like you so a lot

I made a resolution to erase all about you
A dedication from me to you
A contribution to find someone new
A winding one way street from me to you

I can never bring myself to delete your name
An ever-losing gamble,
A trailing soccer game
That even daisy petals cannot explain

Seeing you walk my way
My feet start to sway
I see you
You see me
My eyes look to the ceiling
Hoping unrealistically for a reciprocal feeling

Nothing really happened
So why be a sorrow captain?
Hoping for a curtain,
To fall and close the uncertain.

24.02.2005

jeh

Thursday, February 24 12:57 AM

what if classrooms worked like command economies?

darnn wouldn't that be fun (: imagine a nerd and a slacker put together in the same class. if the slacker didn't do his tutorials and all that then the teacher would take the nerd's work and give it to the slacker. and even provide benefits for all! LOL. homework wld be centrally planned and determined. there'll be no diff between tan toh hwee and sim lay peng =) or chua poh chye. hahaha. damnn. school kids back in the ussr must've been happy all day long hahaha.
factors of production are publicly owned.. there'll be no such thing called a pencil case (: everyone uses the same dumb pen (:!! hahaha. damn sad they neva made it past the 1990's. u'll prob only see this in north korea now =) arhh screw bush. leave north korea alone. communism's interesting :]

jeh

Wednesday, February 23 9:05 PM

the ponning school syndrome has spread to 1a02. everyday i go to school and there's sure to be 2 or 3 missing. makes me wonder.. why do we work so hard when end of the day we're all gonna go down the same road. the same pot holes. the same tarmac. the same destination. perhaps it's just that some of us will be more prepared than others. like sudden changes.. a mother goose crossing the road. a chicken nearly getting knocked down. a herd of cows crossing. hmm.

life's what you make out of it. you can be despondent about the whole thing or you can be elated and overjoyed about everything. 1st intake's coming to a close; the class 45 notice has even been sent out to me already. time to time what i'll make out of 2nd intake, what i want to make out of the remaining time in srjc :]

jeh

Sunday, February 20 8:39 PM

everybody's still so high abt chingay (: why not. 2 full days of fun even tho my grp sucked. haw. evil me ps-ed my own grp juz to catch the last train. hahaha. well it's only a photo :P
argh one of the performers gave me this supa-duber nice metal keychain and i put it into my bag but my bag got lost! grr. it's so damn nice k. a keychain frm nepal. and it's during times like this where u get to see ugly singaporean behaviour at it's worst. these 2 middle aged ladies standing right infront of me seemed like nice ppl.. they even asked me to stay there even tho they were changing our positions and line-ups constantly. then came the freebies :| they literally relieved the guy giving out the freebies of all he had. they even stashed a whole bunch into their pouches and bags for their friends at hme. durrh and that's still not that bad. this lady even grabbed all the free fans one guy was giving out. i was thinking; what the hell does she need 10-12 fans for. it's not like as if she's some octopus with multiple limbs. sigh. when will ugly behaviour ever stop ): the 1hr 'party' was fun =)! hahaha. Lol. some people actually think i go clubbing/know how to dance. how little they know =P

i'm totally burnt out today. slept till 12 but i fell asleep again in the afternoon cos it's so darn hot. tmr's gonna be a stupid 4.45pm day again. and i gotta finish my AO math tutorial. the only beacon of hope is tt i'm going with my bro to the preview of White Noise. then again.. it's a horror movie..

jeh

Monday, February 14 8:19 PM

confusing signs ; 2 way arrows

yes no maybe.. i don't know
can you repeat the question?
- malcom in the middle themesong

i always get stumped at this qn when ppl ask me; "so who are u going out with? :)"
i don't know if i shld be nice and say the pathetic truth, or be a deluder and utter a blatant lie.
if only i got an answer.

i was in lect today when i realized.. i may hang out with my classmates but i'm not close to anyone of them.. sigh.
i miss my ex-class.
that's history.
i'm a geog student (:

jeh

Sunday, February 13 8:28 PM

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jeh

Thursday, February 10 1:14 AM

gong xi fatt choi ; zhu ning nian nian you yu/wan shi ru yi!

we had new yr celebrations today, and i was the only one who went around quacking that above phrase in chinese. everyone else juz went oh yeah hey happy new yr (handshake) , and it goes on feeling like it's some angmoh-nised gathering. it's sad :| where's the dragon/lion dance? where's the green tea? where's the bowing and crowing of chinese 4-lettered (nonono, 4 charactered) phrases? sometimes i kinda feel singaporeans have become too angmoh-nised. well or perhaps trying to be one. with all the banana and potato mouths and ABCs in school. and how horrendous. i met some new cousins who i neva met in my whole lifetime and i neva knew were my cousins. it's sad that they're soft and spoilt. :|

and i kind-of found out today my whole family n relatives are anti-gaming sort of people (: it's like at usual cny dinners for other families, all sorta games and mahjong sessions take place. here in the bok clan nobody plays mahjong, not even playing cards were seen anywhere. it's juz yak yak yak and catching-up sessions with eachother. well at least there's still a drop of hope against an all out erosion of a traditional cny celebration (: and my blog has a humongous profile. EVERYwhere. Lol. even my cousin comes here. hello fans =)

jeh

1:11 AM

hmmm. i was thinkin abt what hui chuan said to me on my bday.
it juz so happened to say it when i saw him at e bus stop:
"it's been too long". it sure sums up everything.

jeh

Saturday, February 5 11:27 PM

eminem - stan

was looking for a cd and found a super-duper old audio cd i burned prolly when i was in sec 1 or 2. it's funny i'm still attracted to those songs now after so many yrs.

jeh

Thursday, February 3 8:54 PM

falling for carol replica(s) and friendster boycotts

it's just so uncanny. i fell for one of the carol replicas. then 1 day later i think i fell for the other one too. the more i look at her face the more they start to resemble each other.

i realise i'm so quiet in my new class ): that's bad. it's juz frustrating not having a chance to be lame. sigh. and many gals in my class are taken. that's not a gd sign rite. hmm gotta admit, i do miss my old class. anyway, that's history :P i'm a geog student. ha-ha-ha.

anyway i really gotta up the pace for my tutorials and lects now.. i'm kind of lagging behind on ao math and geog. and once the A level results are out i'm so gonna drop chinese.. if i get a c5, that's great. anything below that and i'll have no regrets doing chi B. writing compos and doing terribly hard to comprehend su yu worksheets sure isn't fun.

i dun wanna be mean but i already thought hon meng was bad enough, but there's this guy in my new class who's super geeko :| at least hon meng understands cold jokes! he speaks in some weird tone.. doesn't really appear to be a warm personality too.. and during com lab lessons he mutates into the incredible computer hulk who can solve every single problem related to the IT universe. vis-a-vis, there really are geeks here in sr. well that's for 1st 3 mths. i dun really know whether they'll stay on. yeah. there's this st pat's guy i got to know in intereact club and when i asked what his hobby was, without a doubt he screamed out studying. urrrh. okay. and he likes biology, geography and maths. urrhh okay. very outstanding considering that other people mentioned that they liked cycling, collecting stamps, pebbles etc. nice productive hobby.

i'm gonna stop logging onto friendster if i dun get any alerts or messages anymore :| well partly cos it's kinda pathetic logging on to a stagnant account. but i feel people have not embraced the social interaction mr friendster inventor wanted to bring to the world when he toiled over sleepless nights of programming code to come up with the site. eg i sort of annoys me to see people who 'collects' friends jsut for the sadistic sake of reaching the ego-pleasing 500 limit. and it's become more of a keep-in-touch site than a making-friends site to me. so yeah. i'm disappointed with how friendster became degraded to this extent.

hey! i met nice new ppl in interact club (: i juz hope interact doesn't kick me coz their meetings clash with my tennis tranings.. and i gotta see mr yeo. darnn. cannot procrastinate abt it anymore.

jeh